Sadness, deep feelings of sadness I feel this Sunday morning the 10th of April 2005. We found our Furry lifeless this morning in the kennels, she did not respond in the normal happy, jumping, excited way when my wife called her. Some of the dogs were vomiting yesterday afternoon but they were all active. I found a old discarded plastic bottle which most probably contain poisonous substance. Furry was her usual self when I was outside doing gardening, following me and fooling around. No amount of tears can bring relief and comfort to our pain. I wept aloud, my wife mourn and wept but she is gone, our precious baby, our princess, I lost a part of me this morning as I struggle to bury her. It will never be the same again. Hopefully I will find the strength to write about the happy moments we have had with Furry, our Golden Retriever. Furry, we love you, we always had and always will. I had no chance to say goodbye. It is not possible to say good bye… not with these tears flowing from my eyes.. They say all dogs go to heaven, I am not so sure but I look to the day we can meet again.
I find extreme sadness and bitterness this morning, my weeping brought no relief. Every time I look out the window, to the orchard, the pond my eyes are filled with tears, my heart with deep sorrow. My most affectionate, most loved dog is gone forever. She was like a child to us, what really made it worst was the fact that I had prepared my camcorder to film her today, doing her new trick, submerging herself underwater, diving to see what’s underneath. I grieve… only my wife will comprehend this extreme feelings of sadness enveloping me.
Why she had to go?
Why must her be the one?
Why take her?
I have no answers…
Even if I have, the pain stays…
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