Happy New Year?

How was your new year? I mean your new year day really since the new year has just begun and I doubt you have any idea what the future holds. I had a not so nice Christmas, had super hot fever that paracetamol had no effect, had to visit the local hospital and was given a jab to bring down the fever. It was a horrible experience, the fever. Again it brought me down to realise how fragile I really am. After Christmas, the new year day was again not a pleasant time, those near and in the know will know what I am talking about. I have never given much priority to my feelings but this time round, I must say the feelings had a free day and I really felt depressed, must give myself credit for being able to hide most of it. Still a little time before I get all over it. Life is such that you have no choice over the hand of cards dealt to you, you play it the best you can and often times, the end has been decided for you even before you play the first card. Heh! At least that is how I feel right now. Looking ahead, I am trying very hard to look ahead, all I see is gloom and haze, much like the weather the last few days... sigh.. when will the sun shine again.