Pain Revisited

Rain! Rain! At last the long awaited shower of blessings! Thank God for sending us rain, though it is generally wet and messy with the dogs around every time it rains, I am relieved that the land is finally receiving some water from the heavens above.
Furry’s pictures are now nicely mounted on the wall which we named ‘Furry’s Corner’ So far we have one tree planted over her resting place which we had named ‘Furry Tree’. That’s the least we could do to keep her alive in our memories. The pain has not left me yet, looking at her pictures brought tears and pain all over again. Guess I was really attached to her and the fact that I was supposed to know better and was the only one who could protect her from harm’s way made it extremely painful. I felt as if I had failed, my failure to act wisely has caused her to miss out on so much of what life has to offer here at the farm. Some of you may have no inkling as to why I am experiencing such pain over the loss of a pet, it is ok, I really do not expect anyone to understand, Furry was more than a pet to me, she was very much a part of me. The times we spent together, caring and tending to her when she was not well and how strongly she bounce back from her bout with sickness, full of life, never one to give up on a swim, always occupying the space next to me, the only dog able to fend off the naughty Ranger. Furry is gone but never forgotten. I pray in time I will come to terms with her loss and cherish what little time we had together. This single incident has strengthen my resolve to keep this place free from all ‘man made poison’. Chemicals meant to make our life more convenient and easy, herbicide, pesticides, we, humans are ingenious when it comes to creating shortcuts and easy way out of physical work and effort. Guess humans are fond of destroying whatever that’s left of mother earth all in the name of progress; sadly the utopia we aim for simply won’t be there when we are done. The concept of economic development somehow doesn’t make a lot of sense to me anymore. Anyway, I am banning all forms of pesticides and herbicides here. Goodnight! May the God lead you to a deeper walk with Him.