more than a year here and not a sign of the natural, healthy chickens running around. such is the slow progress i am making. sometimes i am filled with feelings of despair at how slow things are moving. i am comforted that in God's mind all is well as long as there is progress, never mind the slow pace. i find it hard adapting to this new mind set of not having things appearing instantly. this modern world does not wait for those who are slow however as i am moving toward an agrarian based lifestyle i must learn not to hurry but to take things as they come. there are many things to consider and take care of so i am constantly being pushed, not by anyone else but dear old me. sometimes i wish i could tell myself to just shut up and just accept me for what i am. but exactly what i am? who am i? what's my purpose here on this earth? do you wonder sometimes how futile and meaningless this life is? i do, i can offer text book answers but some how they aren't me.. not satisfactory even to my small brain... meantime, i will wait... i suggest that you do some waiting too and not let the tide of life toss you back and forth.
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