I miss you....

5:20pm 13th April 2005
Sitting here at the corridor I get a nice view of the rubber trees at the back portion of the land. The weather is hot but with it there is a welcome cool and steady breeze blowing. The wind passes through the pathway where the internal bridge connects the dining and living hall, directly blowing through the corridor. This corridor holds special meanings for me, even this recliner chair that I sit on.. Furry’s place is right beneath this chair. She used to occupy this corridor, filling it with her presence. Our eyes puffed up from tears, hearts grief beyond words, amidst the brokenness in me, there is this strange still sense of peace as I see and hear the rustling leaves of the trees. This place, the many trees, the pond, the birds and all are witnesses to the lovely gift that God has allowed us to experience. Though short but we have had experienced such joy beyond measure from our time spent with our Furry. Many will never understand the storm we are experiencing in our hearts, we did not just lose a dog but we have lost a living part of our life here at the farm. She was such a character and a central feature of this very place. It is tough even for me to walk down to the pond as the images of her running ahead of me and waiting by the banks with that look on her face are so fresh and it pains me that I have to walk alone now. I know I have encountered a likeness, a beautiful, trustworthy, loving kindness of God in Furry. We are still struggling with the pain, we miss her and shall continue to. Last night we broke down before the Lord, the sadness was intense and we couldn’t help it. If we, with all our limitations and imperfection can experience such deep emotions from our encounter with Furry, loving her, caring for her, now that she is gone, when we call, she no longer runs to us.. I can now have a glimpse of how our Father who loves so dearly feels and grief when he calls us and we, his beloved can no longer hear him and respond. Furry has return to the one who loves her more than we ever can and there she sits by the master, there she waits the time when we can all be together again and have good fun together.

Bye, Fur Fur, Baby, Princess, Girl Girl, We shall miss you, you left us with beautiful memories whish we shall cherish and hold dear in our hearts till we can meet again. We shall take good care in the mean time that we may reunite on that day.