i am sad today.

it is a hot dry day here at the farm, we went down to the big city for a
dinner yesterday and got back only at 12:30am, was dead tired from the
drive and the fact that i was having cough the past few nights. sleep
was an impossibility and i really wonder how i was able to function. my
wife's aunt, uncle and daughter are visiting from Japan so we decided to
make the trip down as they are very nice people. they extended to us
excellent hospitality when we were in hiroshima a couple of years back.
it would be good if they could visit us here and spend a few nights.
got up feeling quite miserable this morning, somehow memories of losing
furry came back to me and though it's been four months, it really felt
like yesterday. i wept from thinking of how lonely she must have felt as
she breath her last. why came back. everything sorrowful came back. it
is begining to feel so hopeless and depressing as i ponder on this cruel
life we have to live...