Left this morning at 7+am for my kampung... not that I am born there, but I am planning to set up base there.. my very own kampung, kampung that I choose for myself. At a time when most young people in the kampung are thinking of moving out to the bright lights of the city, I have been planning to move away. Away from the city, pack my bags and literally balik kampung. It is has been more than a year since the idea hit me seriously and I am glad that there is progress. I hope to have a simple life, with loads of time and space to do reading, carpentry, planting.. and all the other stuff that city folks associate with 'hard work'. Nope! I am not retiring.. not enough savings to do so but then how much is enough before we stop the crazy pace we put ourselves and our families through. I want a life with less distractions so that I can have more quiet moments with my God who loves me enough to suffer a very violent death in my place.
Anyway, the drive was pleasant though traffic was quite heavy throughout the way. Lots of muslim families making their way back ahead of the Hari Raya. This is good.. good for the soul, to be able to have reunion makans, sit around in an unhurried environment and just enjoy the company of friends and family.
I reached my destination safe and sound and well, spend time walking around my future home, was nice and cool there, a gentle breeze was prevalent, the blue skies and puffy white clouds were soothing to my soul and spirit. I am not sure when I could finally pack and move, I am leaving it to God's perfect timing... I believe it with all my heart that we must have the faith to wait on God and let his peace guard our hearts, not to be anxious when we have desires and plans. I am experiencing this in my own life.. as I begin to rest in him, he makes things beautiful.. all in his time. He certainly sees further than us. It has been more that a year since I stopped having a 9-5 job and God is helping me to trust him a little bit more each day. Believe me when I tell you it is not easy.. but God has proven to be able to change my outlook if I allow him to.
Trust in the LORD and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Delight yourself in the LORD
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the LORD ;
trust in him and he will do this:
He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when men succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.
Psalms 37:3-7
Please read the full Psalm 37 for full understanding.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Philippians 4:6
Allow me to share the passage that comes to mind. It is long but I do hope you would have the patience to read and meditate on it.
Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.
Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.
Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.
Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.
Colossians 1:17
I did have anxious moments thinking if this is the right move for me to take but as I let go of the fears.. peace takes over.
Oh I promised to share on friday's breakfast.. my brother quoted St. Francis of Asisi. Simple yet powerful...
"Preach the Gospel at everyday, if necessary use words"
Selamat Hari Raya! Maaf I seek for all my ignorance and arrogance.
God Bless & Keep!
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