I talk to myself all the time. Forgive me when I seem to be hitting out at you as you read, truthfully I am just talking to myself, my up's and down's, I believe I am pretty far from perfection, I do reflect a lot on my current position, how far I am from the person I want to be... this awareness comes from the need inside of me to be accepted by those around me. I wish I could stop having misguided expectations and preferences and just center myself on being like Jesus, to strive to be pleasing to Jesus.
His love is unconditional, sacrificial, perfect in everyway.. alas! I carry a load of my baggage with me, my fallen nature, hence my constant, petty expectations, demands and preferences, I expect others to conform to my preset list of qualities which I deem to be acceptable, behaviour I consider to be normal and well, pleasing to me. I guess, I am really not totally dead to myself... and fully alive in Christ. I live for myself most of the time and live only for Christ when it is convenient for me. I need to be reminded every morning, I am reminding myself this morning, I need God to help me live this day... as Jesus would have...
Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.
John 15:13
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