thinking aloud

started on preparing the timber for the chicken barn yesterday. the timber has to be cut to the length required, holes drilled in place, notches chiseled and painted before being assembled at the predetermined location. we bought enough timber to make a total of 4 barns. for a start we are building one unit first just to make sure that it is structurally sound and practical for our use. we have chosen to proceed with caution albeit slow as the timber is expensive and we do not want to waste resources unnecessarily. guess living here has taught me that it is wise to proceed one step at a time and not try to rush with things. there is little to be gain but much to lose if one is to leap into the unknown, with matters that has nothing to do with life or death it really is foolhardy to jump when one can walk. so step by step, the farm will be up and running. i may be slow but in a few years i should be self sufficient or maybe at least 50% self sufficient. i do not think i could ever be 100% self sufficient but i do hope that the farm will eventually sustain our short living here in this world. i do not need lots of food, clothing, no need for fancy cars though i do have a nice house here; which i think is a bit too big now... sort of a legacy of my city mentality days. i really desire more happy moments, more time with my wife, family, friends, dogs and most importantly with my inner self which i think will eventually mean a closer walk with God. time to be alone is crucial for the nourishment of my soul and spirit.

big bro & family from Montreal came over two days back to visit, dad came along, we had durians, meals together, a good time together. sadly my wife have to leave for town yesterday morning to work. not much of a choice for her with the tough market conditions and diminishing bottomline, she would have to work harder. working into the wee hours of the morning is common to her but hopefully when most of the designing is done for the year she needn't do so anymore. she would be away till the weekend. dad's big bash lunch is on this coming sunday so we shall gather. 2nd bro should be back this coming thursday with his family.

anyway, will continue to press on and make good my time here on earth, hopefully i will have some form of reassemblance of God my Father by the time i am to leave.. God bless and remember that what really matters isn't what people think or perceive that you are but what you really are deep inside.